Possibilities

The possibilities that could have occurred gets my mind going to places that it shouldn't go. And instead of trying to push them away, I go with them. I let my mind go in a place that it shouldn't go to. Where are life could have gone if he didn't just give up. Right now I am in this weird spot of not wanting to be single and not wanting to be in a relationship and I pretty much hate dating so where does that put me in!? Yeah, I have no idea either. So I guess I will just go where the most logical place is. And where is that, you ask? On a date with this guy named Simeon. Now I won't go into how we met but we have gone on 2 dates and they have gone really well. I wouldn't mind hanging out again in fact I really like him. Hes funny, cute and has a decent job but here is where it gets stupid. I hope that it doesn't turn into a relationship even though he seems like a great guy and would be a great candidate for a relationship. Why do I not want to move and try to hang on on whats behind me instead of trying to move forward. Yes, deep down in my gut I think that my path and Ryans path will somehow cross again but I can't count on that. I feel like if I move on then I lose all those possibilities. What I should do is go on more dates and make sure I dont lose any possibilities with other guys... Smart thinking, Nicole